We are taking a brief pause in our ongoing study in the Book of Acts during this week of Spring Break, and offer this week’s devos as we examine how our foundation of faith impacts our view on marriage. We would love for you to share these devotionals with your friends, if it has impacted you. We will resume our study of Acts on March 18th.
“Then Jacob . . . wrestled with him until daybreak.” Genesis 32:24
A leftover fight is a cold, tasteless thing. Picking at it and pushing it around the plate doesn’t make it any better. It’s a fight and neither one knows what it’s really about. Assumptions are made, accusations are hurled, defensiveness ensues. Each person is trying to uncover some sinister plot the other had planned to wreck the evening. But, there are no plots, just misunderstandings from bad communication. It’s impossible to give yourself to someone while believing they don’t have your best interests at heart.
Everyone has a story of how trust was broken and why they can’t trust. Not trusting seems to come naturally. Actually, trust came first, then sadly, we learn to distrust. Once trust is broken it’s hard to get it back again. But the path of trust is the only way that leads to loving again.
The tension of trust is the raging protest of our soul, “but they have let me down,” “I will not be taken for a fool again,” “they did not love me back.” You weren’t a fool for trusting, if anything you were changed in the process. Besides, we trust because of what it does for us, not what it does for the other person.
That’s not to say we will not be scarred in the process. Trusting can be bloody. It can feel like you’re clawing your way out of a muddy pit. When Jacob wrestled with the angel he was learning to trust; it left him limping. Often in our battle to trust we have to wrestle our deepest, darkest fears to the ground, and see God is still there in the quietness of the night, then we can truly trust.
When we trust others, we are showing we trust God. We have placed our hope in a Savior who is completely able to come through for us. We have not placed our hope in the trustworthiness of others. We don’t demand others to first be trustworthy before we extend it, because our ultimate trust is not in other people, it’s in the trustworthiness of Jesus.
Is there someone to whom you can extend trust?